Posted on June 13, 2014
I don’t buy into the superstition guff of Friday 13th etc, yet I’d never walk under a ladder. Don’t want to see a window cleaner’s backside – having said that, they don’t climb ladders but use fancy water brushes and hoses. Lightweights.
Been a dull day. Had a wander round Aldi to see why it’s the new Waitrose – yes it’s cheap and looks good quality but gluten free looks non existent. Saw some dairy free chocolate buttons and that was about it. I might try a shop there next week though it did have that butchery bleachy odour. Odd smell.
Missed my counselling session but my counsellor, a kindly chap, wasn’t going to let me get away with forgetting to attend. No he phoned me, even insisting it was his fault, so as I didn’t commit suicide or wevs. I love running through the trauma questionnaire – picking a number between 1 and 8 for various questions.
Do you have suicidal thoughts? Every day, some days, rarely.
Not the cheeriest of polls but it provides a mood and depression total, mine’s still severe despite medications, blogging, being off work, going to Center Parcs, etc. I don’t think Aldi is a mood lifter either.
I’ve got something of a dilemma now – fight on or fly away. I blogged earlier about wanting to fight, but I’m a bit punch drunk and I honestly think the best mood and depression lifter wouldn’t be a day in Waitrose or Milton Keynes (no irony, I love MK), but having a purpose to get up for apart from cycling to school, rotating washing loads, supervising the dishwasher and hunting the wife’s missing shoe.
That’s still not appeared BTW.
By the time blog Thirty is written and published, I’ll know what my future holds.
Another cliché – or superstition – is “Never go back.”
Is that true? Have people ever gone back to jobs and found it okay? I’ve only done it with holidays, campsites and cities – and I must fess up I keep going back to Great Yarmouth – for #chips.
But back to a workplace and job that put me here? Or should I do something new?
Flight or fight? Stay or go? Old or new?
Only I can decide those answers …